It is really amazing when one discovers his own strength. When one comes upon powers he never thought he had.
It is as if when the time comes to be strong, will and patience are intensely launched...
All this was released when I have been exposed to fear.
My brother has cancer.
It is intense just uttering the words...I never thought I would ever be able to say such a phrase...
It is very strange. What I am going through. I feel that I am drinking something warm so slowly it is making me numb...I feel I am not me. I feel at peace. What is this? I cannot describe it exactly, and I cannot give it a name either. What is this that I am feeling? Is it strength? Is it weakness? Is it surrender? Or is this what they call submission? Is that it? I wouldn't know...
Most people think calamity is something bad. They cannot be more wrong. As I see it, and so clearly so, suffering is what makes us who we are. It allows us to grow, to become more compassionate, more patient, more human!
Even if it means we leave earlier than we thought we'd be staying, even if we are to say goodbye to those who are dear to us sooner than we thought we would, even if we get left behind when...we wanted so badly to go along.
The hardest thing to do would be overcoming the fear.
Fear can unleash emotions and powers we would never discover in us had it not for it. It acts as a pain killer, I suppose, as it directs your attention to something else other than what is actually scaring you.
Like the concept of shiatsu adding pressure on pain points to avert the body's attention to the new pain instead, in a similar way, fear turns the attention of the mind to focus on being scared rather than on the threat itself. That will stimulate your system to fight the new intruder.
knowing that fear can be conquered much easier than pain, one would actually defeat whatever is trying to break him. It doesn't matter if you would survive it or not, rather it is how you got through it, and how much you profited from having it.
We still need to defeat it, though, to get the true value of having been exposed to it...
May Allah be with us.
Dear Reem,you really touched our hearts....."we don't beat the Grim Reaper by living longer,we beat the Reaper by living well and living fully,for the Reaper will come for all of us.The question is what do we we do between the time we are born and the time he shows up.It's too late to do all the things you're gonna kinda get around to."
ReplyDeleteHabebty,
ReplyDeleteI am very proud of you. I wished so much you and your lovely family would not have to go through any more trials and difficulties, and especially that you would be spared this scary fight, the big C.
Having been there myself with both of my parents, I can echo your sentiments and I think you are going in the right direction.
In the end, the reality is we can not choose many of our fights nor the ending but only HOW we react, act, and hopefully, grow in faith, while we are still alive. It is not the WHY that we should try to answer. That, we can leave for the scientists.
Dear Reem,
ReplyDeleteI love your blog, there’s always something interesting and useful to learn here. It’s not just your blog that I learn from, ever since I have known you I feel I have become a better person and learnt so much from you. Our Holy Prophet has said ‘‘The similitude of a good companion is like an owner of musk; if you don't get anything, you will get the smell of it.'' Glad to have a good companion like you. Not sure I can ever be a wonderful woman like you but I follow your footsteps. You are my role model. I don’t have words to express my love and respect for you . I pray from all my heart that you and your family come out of this soon and may happiness fill your lives. Ameen