It is really amazing when one discovers his own strength. When one comes upon powers he never thought he had.
It is as if when the time comes to be strong, will and patience are intensely launched...
All this was released when I have been exposed to fear.
My brother has cancer.
It is intense just uttering the words...I never thought I would ever be able to say such a phrase...
It is very strange. What I am going through. I feel that I am drinking something warm so slowly it is making me numb...I feel I am not me. I feel at peace. What is this? I cannot describe it exactly, and I cannot give it a name either. What is this that I am feeling? Is it strength? Is it weakness? Is it surrender? Or is this what they call submission? Is that it? I wouldn't know...
Most people think calamity is something bad. They cannot be more wrong. As I see it, and so clearly so, suffering is what makes us who we are. It allows us to grow, to become more compassionate, more patient, more human!
Even if it means we leave earlier than we thought we'd be staying, even if we are to say goodbye to those who are dear to us sooner than we thought we would, even if we get left behind when...we wanted so badly to go along.
The hardest thing to do would be overcoming the fear.
Fear can unleash emotions and powers we would never discover in us had it not for it. It acts as a pain killer, I suppose, as it directs your attention to something else other than what is actually scaring you.
Like the concept of shiatsu adding pressure on pain points to avert the body's attention to the new pain instead, in a similar way, fear turns the attention of the mind to focus on being scared rather than on the threat itself. That will stimulate your system to fight the new intruder.
knowing that fear can be conquered much easier than pain, one would actually defeat whatever is trying to break him. It doesn't matter if you would survive it or not, rather it is how you got through it, and how much you profited from having it.
We still need to defeat it, though, to get the true value of having been exposed to it...
May Allah be with us.
